Actress Portia de Rossi is now living with a prosperous career, healthy life and is happily married to Ellen DeGeneres. But things weren’t always so structured, de Rossi suffered from eating disorders and limited herself to around 300 calories per day. 

She opens up about it in her new book, Unbearable Lightness. 

The extreme diet left the actress weighing 82 pounds at her lightest, and facing health issues associated with being so thin. De Rossi mentions she’s not proud of it, but says it’s a testament to her willpower that she was able to follow such a strict diet plan. 

She also added that it would be all she thought about, and it was all she was holding on to.